Thoughts #2

An impossible thought that I ever wish for;

I wonder if I have a chance to live more than once?

I wonder about that impossible thing every time I can't understand myself.

What if I should understand myself in this first life and live a better life in the second?

It's complicated to understand how the things inside my head work.

It's always complicated to think about how I can understand myself.

Humans will always be human, and it'll always be hard to understand humans.

Some people would be crazy over there with their problems.

But how if I become crazy just because of the things inside me that are hard to understand?

I've tried so many times, but it's always not been easier.

And after this, I might think that I don't deserve anyone to understand me.

I don't deserve to be loved by everyone.

Cause if I can't understand myself, how will they?

That's the cycle.

I hate every time I feel this all, but this feeling is one of the colors of me.

How can I avoid? I can't find the way.

Not everyone is understandable, not every thought can be thought of.

Just live your life in your own way and let everything go.

Islamabad, 17 June 2023.